After much prayer, in December 2013, my husband and I decided we were going to take the plunge and start trying for children. I remember telling Gannon how weird it was to “plan” when we would have children. I just knew that it would only take a few months to get pregnant and we would have our family like we’ve always dreamed of, but boy was I wrong!
As several months began to pass, I started feeling like something wasn’t right. We decided to make an appointment with a fertility specialist where we found out I had Endometriosis, PCOS, and a Subseptate Uterus.
In order to repair my subseptate uterus, I had to have surgery. During that procedure, we found out both of my tubes were completely blocked from my endometriosis. We also found out that I had stage 4 endometriosis, which is the worse case you could have. After that surgery, they put me on lupron which basically puts your body into menopause to suppress your endometriosis. Luckily, the lupron opened up my tubes and we were able to “try naturally” for a couple months.
Without any success naturally, we decided to try ovulation induction. This would be my first time to ever give myself a shot. I had heard SO many success stories I just knew it was going to work for us. But when I got my period the day before our pregnancy test my hopes for that treatment were crushed.
From there we decided to give IVF a try. My doctor knew that we couldn’t handle another failed ovulation induction and if we kept stimulating my body without any success we risked having to do lupron shots again. And ladies let’s be honest, menopause at the age of 27 is no fun! So we tried our first round of IVF. I had SO much HOPE in this treatment. November 11, 2016, we drove to Oklahoma City for my egg retrieval. During my egg retrieval, they collected 20 eggs which is a great number! The following day I found out 9 out of those 20 eggs fertilized naturally. Which means they put Gannon’s (my very cute Hubby) sperm into a dish with my egg and let see which lucky sperm implanted into the egg. Everything was going great with those 9 embryos until Day 5 when we got the call that they weren’t progressing like they needed to be. I immediately reached out to all my prayer warriors and by God’s miracle Day 6 we found out we had 2 that made it to freeze. Since I overstimulated from the medicine my Doctor decided to freeze our embryos and allow my body to heal from the egg retrieval. I hated having to “wait” even longer but I knew my body needed it.
On February 18, 2016, we transferred our only two perfect little embryo babies. Truly, I can’t think back on that day and not smile. I’ll never forget the moment I was being wheeled out of the transfer room and my Doctor walked out and told my family, “Here she comes all pregnant!” I’ve never felt more like a woman or more proud in my entire life. During the two week wait, I dreamed about what a future those babies would give us. How they would look, what we would name them, and about their future. One of my favorite things about the two-week wait is when Gannon would call me and ask how his babies were doing. I loved knowing I had two precious little lives inside me.
On March 3, 2016, our whole worlds were turned upside down. We got the call that I was no longer pregnant. To say we were crushed was a total understatement. Gannon and I had both taken the day off work and were sitting on the couch (for hours) waiting on the news. We were scared to even go to the bathroom in fear that we would miss the call. As soon as I heard my nurses voice I knew we weren’t pregnant. After we found out Gannon and I held each other on the couch and Gannon said one of the most beautiful prayers I’ve ever heard.
A few weeks later we met with our Doctor and talked about our next steps. He recommended us taking the summer off to heal and take the time to mourn the loss of our two babies. Gannon and I are crazy people and had decided to renovate our house literally two weeks after finding out the news. Looking back, I can’t imagine being pregnant during that time. I think for us, it was the perfect distraction.
August 31st, 2016, we started our second round of IVF. This time they collected 22 eggs and 14 of those fertilized through ICSI. On Day 5 we froze our 4 precious little miracles. Before we do our FET we decided to do an Endometrial Receptivity Array (ERA) to see if my body needs an extra day of estrogen to have a successful implantation of our embryos. After we get the results from that test, our transfer will be in February 2017. Until then we will continue to cling to our precious Father and know that he has us here for a reason.
We know our Journey to Parenthood is going to be a long winding rollercoaster. We welcome you and ask you to cry with us in the “lows” and rejoice in the “highs.” We know we wouldn’t be able to get through this “storm” without the love and support of our family & friends, our church home, and above all our Heavenly Father. Philippians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”