I have been putting off “family pictures” in hopes that our next ones I would be pregnant. I thought it was sad to have pictures of just the two of us and not with our arms or belly full of babies like most of our friends. But then I realized I need to quit wishing away these days! This time with just the two of us is precious and I need to cherish it more! Our days of sleeping in, driving 6 hours for pictures, last minute weekend getaways, late night ice cream runs will be changing soon. And instead of waiting and wishing this time away I’m going to cherish every moment we have with just the two of us!
I reached out to our dear friend Melissa Click, with Melissa Click Photography and asked if she could squeeze us in for a last minute fall shoot! She asked if we were up for a little adventure to Witchita Mountains where she heard of this amazing spot. I was super sneaky and left out the details of driving so far to my sweet hubby until he said we could get some pictures taken 🙂 It’s all about the timing ladies!!
I tried to find a cute little cabin, but since we decided to do this last minute they were all booked. Which ended up being perfect because we wanted to get back to Tulsa so we could cheer my mom on at the Tulsa Run the following day!
Anyway, these pictures are so precious to me. Infertility has worn me down in ways I never imagined. I often look at myself and think I’m not good enough. That I’m not good enough to be a mom, I’m not skinny enough, pretty enough, smart enough, just enough! But when I see these pictures I realize I am. God has us in this waiting period and it’s such a sweet time that we need to cherish. Our days won’t always be like this. Ten years from now, I will probably be posting how frustrating it was to take family pictures because all our kiddo’s were acting crazy.
So my hope for each of you in this waiting period is to realize you are enough. Cherish whatever place you’re in today and remember God is working on your story. It might feel like he has forgotten you, but I can promise you he hasn’t!
Whatever you’ve been holding off doing, go do it! If it’s a weekend getaway with just you and the hubby, go do it! If you’re already stressing about the holiday’s wondering which family member is going to annouce their pregnant, go out of town with you and your hubby! Or better yet, take this year and spend the holidays with just the two of you! Your family might not understand, but that’s ok! Love you and do what YOU need! If you want to go buy a rocking chair or even a crib so your nursery isn’t just an empty room anymore, do it! (I might be speaking to myself here) 🙂 God has us in a waiting period for a reason and instead of wishing it away ask him why he has you here and I bet he will show you! And most importantely love and take care of yourself during this time!
Isaiah 40:31 says, “But they who wait upon the Lord will get new strength. They will rise up with wings like eagles. They will run and not get tired. They will walk and not become weak.”
Remember, you are strong enough to get through this!
Now to get off my rant! Here are the pictures!
Just to show how unbelievably windy it was I had to throw this in there 🙂
We love you all dearly!
Momma Brown 🙂